i really, truly, genuinely am in love… with Jesus. He is the one person i can always count on, He is always there for me. He never lets me down, He might not do things in the time frame i would like but He always works things out in the end. He is always faithful. i love Him.
[life is better than great]
last night i had a dream that i was telling the hot guy from Starbucks about Jesus and he was genuinely interested and attentive. in my dream i had such passion and fervor, something that i have not felt in a long time. i think my excitement was one of the things that made him curious. i wish that all people were truly like that. most of the time if someone finds out someone else is a Christian they try to avoid the subject, especially if the Christian is very passionate. in real life passion can be overbearing and scare people away. rarely does it have the opposite effect. all that i want is the strength and words to share my faith with people who are lost, during this holiday season.
“You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.” Matthew 5:14-16
and my favorite verse:
“Therefore go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,” Matthew 28:19
i woke up at 6:45am for the first time in… God only knows how long. went out to the kitchen and opened the blinds and do my delight i saw the sun cresting the tops of the trees. what a wonderful way to start off a day. after eating and getting ready i went to starbucks to get my much needed coffee (which i have decided only to get on days i babysit to help keep me awake). then i was off to babysit the boys, 10 month old twins and their 3yr old brother. i arrive and, for the most part, the entire day is wonderful. the babies sleep through the allotted time for their naps and Jack (the 3yr old) doesn’t get too fussy about anything. around 330 the twins woke up from their second nap and then i gave them another bottle. when the second one i was feeding was about halfway done his bottle he throws up. and this is not your usual spit-up-dribbling-out-the-mouth this was a fountain of baby formula coming out of this tiny childs face. it got all over him and soaked the front of my hoodie. i quickly wiped off his face and hands and then ripped my hoodie off. sadly the only thing i had on underneath it was a tank top. of course, the day that i decide not to wear a long sleeve shirt underneath my many layers is the day i would need it. it was completely worth the money though. i went and did some christmas shopping after. oh and i bought myself the best pants in the world. what a great day :)
when you don’t work right for days on end you make me not want to post things. please stop having issues so that the next time i am in the mood to write i don’t have to wait around on you.
sincerely,
impatient and unmotivated
like any other day, i went to starbucks to get my usual winter drink, the same one i get every time. this time there was a different guy making the drinks though. i was kind of staring at him because i hadn’t seen him working there before and we made eye contact for just a couple seconds. then he asked me how i was so i said good and smiled. then he kept looking at me and, of course, i was looking at him too. so then he asked if i liked winter. my reply: umm kind of, i lived in wisconsin for a year. him: oh so then you kind of have to like it, huh? then we got to talking about why i was in wisconsin and how it was through PBU and then he mentioned that Kendal (another guy who works at starbucks) went there. i know kendal because he is married to rachel groff who went to wwc also. then i told him how jenna (rachel’s sister) is there right now. i love talking to people who you wouldn’t necessarily talk to. he was really cute and totally flirting haha ;) i love my life!!
well was i ever wrong or what? he likes another girl and hopes to start a relationship with her. they have dated before but neither of them are really mature enough to keep a relationship together. i think i am ultimately better off without him. God knows what is best for me so i am really just trusting Him at this point.
I have decided that I jump to conclusions a lot and I need to just be patient with life. Pretty sure he definitely likes me :)
i thought he liked me… am i wrong? am i blind? we went out together and he just wanted to call it “hanging out” although we went to a restaurant and he paid. ugh, i dont know!!!!
i made a new friend. he is two years younger than me. he is really tall. anyway. he is super nice and i feel like i can talk to him forever but i think that he likes me. i dont like him like that. he gave me his phone number and i might call him but i dont want him to get the wrong idea. i am just a nice person but i guess that can sometimes come off as more. oh boy.
